Wanting to Go Home

It is a terrible feeling to be sitting in the place where I live, feeling like I want to go home.

Where do I go?

My wife and I had a "falling out" of sorts today. Pretty significant one. It was pretty much another installment of an infinitely repeating episode (broken record?), but I have pretty much reached my breaking point. I have no capacity remaining within me to deal with this shit.

I really don't.

I try to make her understand that, but I think she believes (or just wants to believe) that it's just my anger talking. But I'm pretty fucking serious. I really can't take this shit anymore.

I don't care if it's her or me. Make it all me if you want - put it all on me - it just doesn't matter, because I'm miserable either way. Whatever, or whomever, the cause, the effective result is what I have to live with. And I'm not doing so well.

I just want to go home. But I don't know where that is.

I hate this feeling.